The First Intern

[falafel_musings]

Intro: Secrets & Whispers. The fourth in a series of Baltar/Gaeta missing scenes fics. These stories may be read together or as stand-alone oneshots.
Chapters: 1. Devotion to Good, 2. Return from Kobol, 3. After the Election, 4. The First Intern, 5. Judgement Day, 6. A Walk at Midnight, 7. Awaiting the Verdict, 8. Voices in the Mind. 9. Last Confessions. 
Synopsis: Felix arrives at the Colonial One to find President Baltar in bed with one of his staff. 
Characters: Baltar/Gaeta, with mentions of Gina.
Rating: PG-13 for mild sexual references.
Disclaimer: I don't own BSG and Romo Lampkin will be my lawyer if anyone tries to sue.
Author's Note: Yes, I am finally returning to my Baltar/Gaeta series after what feels like a ten year absence. My apologies to the readers who were eagerly following this story before it stopped dead. I promise that I'll be continuing to the end now. It has been easier to shape the conclusion now my ship has its canon resolve. For any of my newer flisters who are not familiar with this saga; feel free to either catch up or just read this entry (or not!). Each chapter is fairly self-contained. 
Many thanks to lls_mutant who betaed this for me! 

4. The First Intern

Gaius woke to a fierce banging in his head.

He moaned, tucking his pillow around his ears and curling his body into the fetal position. He was a bratty infant of a President at this time in the morning. He refused to open his eyes until the pounding ceased. It felt like there was a Raider volleying inside his skull. Gaius decided there must be something very wrong with his brain. He would have to see a doctor about these headaches. It was only after the tenth bang that he realised the sound was not coming from inside his mind. Someone was knocking at the entrance to his bed chamber.

“Mr President…” said a terse impatient voice.

Gaius raised himself onto his elbows, cursing and forcing his eyelids to open. Felix Gaeta stood in the doorway of his private rooms, rapping his knuckles against the wall of the passage that joined his quarters to his office. Once his vision had cleared, Gaius saw that Felix was not looking at him. His eyes were fixed on the girl lying beside him on the mattress. Her rust red hair was spread over his pillows; her large milky breasts were exposed above the covers. She was one of the interns that worked for his administration; the first intern Gaius had taken to his bed.

Felix took a breath. He was careful to keep his expression officious, but there was no hiding the betrayal in his eyes. For one giddy moment Gaius thought he was going to cry. He realised he wanted to see it happen. But to his disappointment, Felix tightened his jaw and managed to hold himself together.

“The morning report is waiting on your desk, sir,” he said.

With that, Felix turned his back and exited his chamber. Gaius let out a snort and slumped back on the mattress; defeated. It hardly seemed worth it now. He had been hoping for a better reaction out of Felix than that. 

It was over a month now since they had last slept together. The memory was not a pleasant one. Gaius had been pushy, frustrated and drunk out of his skull. Felix had been tense and distracted; made frigid by the pressures of his duties. The following morning Gaius had woken up with a raging hangover and found Felix sitting up in bed, his arms folded over his chest, complaining that their sex had been rushed and uncomfortable for him. Gaius had muttered a weak apology and then handed him a suppository from his bedside drawer. Felix had shot him one last disdainful look before climbing back into his clothes and storming out of his room in a simmering fury. 

“You had better get dressed,” Gaius groaned, nudging the girl at his side.

The intern pouted and clung to the bedclothes. Gaius supposed the only reason she had slept with him was for this chance of lounging in this soft bed in the warm. He had forgotten her name already. It was something like Jessica or Clarissa or Vanessa; some cheap little tease of a name like that. Her name didn’t matter. She held no significance. This wasn’t the first time he had cheated on Felix. No indeed; it had only been a matter of hours after their first time that Gaius had taken the shuttle over to the Cloud Nine and proceeded in bedding Gina. Well, he could hardly pass up the opportunity. He never imagined the abused cylon woman would give him the chance. And since Gaius was severing ties with Gina for his settlement on New Caprica, Felix would never know. He hadn’t seen the harm in it.

Gaius had felt on top of the world that morning when he had arrived on the Colonial One to be sworn into the presidency. He had been on a roll. He had succeeded three of his most triumphant conquests; one over Felix Gaeta, one over Gina Inviere, and the last and sweetest of all over Laura Roslin.

It had all come crashing down with the destruction of the Cloud Nine.

Following the terrorist attack, Gaius had spent a long night crying in Felix’s arms while the younger man had held him gently and attempted to console him with loving reassurances; The bombing wasn’t your fault, Gaius. You’ve been so busy with the election campaign. The military should have put better security on the doors of your lab... Yes, Felix had even blamed himself for not suggesting these precautions. He was still so innocent and trusting back then. He had smoothed the hair back from Gaius’s brow and stopped his tears by promptly accepting the position of Chief of Staff in his administration; We can put this tragedy behind us, Gaius. We can build up the dream of New Caprica together... For a brief moment Felix had become his hero. Gaius had wanted so desperately to believe him.

He still wanted Felix as his security blanket; as something safe and reliable to cling to. Their relationship had been troubling for him in the months that followed. Gaius knew he preferred women and these homosexual inclinations were forced on him by circumstance. But Gina had made an intriguing confession on the night of their liaison. She had told him that she had once been the lover of Admiral Cain; a woman who had later ordered her to be raped and tortured by the men under her command. I know it was the men who did it to me, Gina had said, but it was worse…far worse….to be betrayed by Helena. Part of me had really thought we were in love. But after what she did…I somehow feel safer in the arms of a man. Gaius understood only to well. After the shock of Gina’s own betrayal and abuse of his trust, Gaius felt safer in the arms of a man too. Women were cruel and merciless; none more so than the Sixes.

It had been months since Gaius had slept with a woman, probably the longest period of his adulthood. But as this previous evening had proved, he couldn’t break the habit of a lifetime. Gaius sighed, glancing back to his lazing intern. 

“Listen, if you’re not up and out of that bed in the next ten minutes I’m going to have to call for security,” Gaius snapped impatiently. He was busily pulling himself into his suit, his head still throbbing in time with his movements. “This is the Colonial One; the President’s ship. It’s not a frakking hotel...”

The girl rolled her eyes. She sat upright and began to dress; slipping her blouse over her head and tugging on her knee-high boots. She had only been hired two days ago. Playa had found her for Gaius, assuring him the girl would be willing and that she wouldn’t leak this little scandal in the press. In fact she had promised she could employ more interns of this nature in exchange for the supplies and favours she enjoyed as part of the President’s inner circle.

Gaius was already groaning as he stepped out of his chamber and into his office. There was a stack of documents waiting for him on the desk and Felix was standing close by, casting his shadow over them.  

“Good morning, Mr President,” he said.

Gaius frowned at the greeting. These days Felix had a cultivated a way of saying Mr President so that it rhymed with you bastard.

“Yes, morning…where are my pills?”

Gaius sank into his chair and rummaged his drawers for anything that might alleviate his headache which was now swelling into a migraine. He spotted one of the cheap yellow pharmaceuticals that Cottle had given him lying near his ashtray. He scooped it up and swallowed it dry. Gaius was going to have to demand a stronger prescription. Maybe he would even have to take a trip to the Galactica for another brain scan. It really felt like there was tumour growing up there.  

“Just a few items, sir,” said Felix, ignoring his mood. “I’ve scheduled a meeting this afternoon to discuss the candidates for the union presidency. Galen Tyrol seems to be gaining public support after his protest rally on…”  

“Gods, not that oafish windbag…” Gaius interrupted.

Felix didn’t pause or bat an eyelid at his remark. “We may, of course, discuss your reservations over Mr Tyrol’s nomination at the meeting, sir…though the union leader will still be chosen by a democratic vote...”   

Gaius narrowed his eyes. He might almost call it impressive how much snide and derision Felix managed to slip into these little customary speeches.

Before he could continue the intern came slinking out of his chamber; her blouse only half-fastened, her boots unlaced. Gaius threw a sly glance at Felix. He reached out and hooked a finger through the belt loop of her skirt.

“I’m so sorry about my temper just now,” he cooed, pulling the girl onto his lap and kissing her neck. “The pressures of leadership, you know...”

The intern smiled, leaning into his caresses. She took a cigarette from his desk and sparked it up. Then she wandered over to the couch and flopped down on its cushions, making herself at home in their opulent surroundings. Gaius winked at her and then turned his attention back to Felix. He still wasn’t reacting. His face was stony and impassive. He was just like the Six he had lived with on Caprica who had refused to lose her composure over Gaius’s many affairs.

“I also have the new draft of the census for your inspection,” Felix went on. “It’s in this folder here, sir. It requires your signature.”

“A census?! Is that what you’ve been wasting your time on?”

Gaius rose to his feet and rounded the desk. There were mornings when he didn’t care for Felix standing over him like an interrogator. Gaius stood by his side and shook his head over the long list of names that Felix had collected. His aide was obsessed with names on lists, just like Roslin had once been obsessed by the numbers on her white board. Gaius imagined Felix had memorised the name of every person in their colony by now. He still persisted with these compulsive little lists. 

“Mr Gaeta, I thought we agreed that the census was to be annual,” he complained. “We’ve been down on this planet only a matter of months. There have been no cylon attacks, no major civil catastrophes, so I don’t see why you…”     

“I think it’s important that we keep records of our people, sir. We have a population of 39, 197 souls in New Caprica City. We have sworn an oath to protect them. That starts with knowing who these people are; how many we have, how many we’ve lost. In the cold weather spells we have been losing many of our elderly citizens to pneumonia and influenza. Medicines are limited so there’s only so much we can do. The least we can do is keep them in our records…”

“Yes, but…it’s not really that bad, is it?!” Gaius protested. “It can’t be as bad as those months we spent being hunted across the galaxy, fleeing for our lives. It’s been much better since I took office and we started this settlement, hasn’t it? What about the babies, Felix? You told me there have been five babies born in...”

“Four babies, Mr President,” Felix corrected him, still not meeting his eyes. “One of them died of meningitis…just last week.”

Gaius rubbed his temples. His headache was unbearable now.

“Dear Gods, why must this job be so depressing?”

Felix finally turned his head, scowling openly now. “You think that your job is depressing? Gaius…you aren’t living out there! You do nothing for those people. You don’t even seem to care. So why don’t you just sign these papers and I’ll get on with doing your frakking job for you…”      

Gaius's hand whipped up and struck Felix across the face, his knuckles cracking against his chin.

Felix took a step back, his eyes wide and appalled. His President had just hit him. Gaius could not believe it either. He stared down at his trembling hand in revulsion. It felt like a cylon device must have controlled his actions. He wasn’t a violent man by nature. There was something very wrong with him. Could Felix not see he was becoming unwell?

The intern sitting on the couch spluttered a laugh, enjoying the show. Gaius shot her a beseeching look, silently begging her not to make things worse. Felix turned his back, crossing the room to the cabin windows. He stood gazing out over the planet; over the windy shanty town that they called a city. For the first time, Gaius realised that this was his planet. This was Felix Gaeta’s broken dream of New Caprica. It was becoming all too clear who was the real leader and who was the assistant of this government. Felix had the look of a sea captain; standing on the deck of his ship that has sprung leaks and is sinking fast. He knew his civilisation was failing. He looked close to admitting that his idealism and his ambition had outstretched him; that he had taken on more responsibilities than he could handle… 

No, Gaius didn’t want Felix to give up on his dream just yet. He turned back to his desk, snatching up a pen and scribbling his name down on all the dotted lines. He didn’t care what the documents were. If they were important to Felix then he would sign them and trust that it was the right thing to do.

“Felix…here, I’ve signed them…” Gaius slipped the papers neatly back inside their folder and carried them over to him, holding them out like a cringing servant. “Look…I signed them just like you wanted me to…” 

Felix glanced down at the documents, his eyes narrowing on his signature. To think this same man had once hoped to have Gaius Baltar autograph his science manuals. Now he looked at his name like it was a stain on the paper. 

“Thank you…” Felix said tonelessly. He tucked the folder under his arm and then leaned close to whisper to Gaius. “You might want to offer your little friend a bribe. You don’t want her to talk. After all we know how much you value your reputation.”

Gaius winced at the sarcasm. He knew what Felix was implying. He recalled his insistence that their own relationship had to remain secret. Gaius tried to appear oblivious. He shared a conspiratorial nod with Felix and then scowled at the young intern who was still lounging on his cushions and taking her sweet time to lace up her boots. Gaius looked back just in time to see Felix rolling his eyes and turning towards the exit. Gaius raised his knuckles to his mouth, chewing his skin. Gods, it had finally happened. Felix could see right through him.  

“Mr Gaeta…” he called out in desperation.

Felix halted in the doorway, glancing over his shoulder.

“Will there be anything else, sir?”

Gaius swallowed and nodded, wringing his hands. “Please…please tell the family of the baby who died...that the President is very sorry for their loss.”

Felix held his stare for a moment. Gaius caught the smallest flicker in his eyes; a light that dwindled ever so faintly, yet it was enough to tell Gaius that Felix still believed in him. Or at least, he was still a man who wanted to believe.

“I’ll tell them, Mr President…” he said. 


5. Judgement Day
 

Comments

[lls-mutant.livejournal.com]

Yay, you posted!

Like I said, this hits about every single fic-kink I've got, and the ones you aren't hitting in this chapter you've hit earlier or will probably hit later. I'm not sure what that says about me, but I don't care, because I am loving this series so much.

I know I commented earlier in the beta (btw- I definitely think the shift to dialogue in those paragraphs worked really well), but the whole idea of this being a conquest over Felix... you show the emotionally abusive aspect of the relationship so very well without getting melodramatic. And when Gaius frantically signs the papers... it's like a guilt gift. It's SO them.

I also love love LOVE the concept that this is Felix's dream and his city (one I've used before, too), and that Gaius sees that and wants to give him that dream. That he's doing what he does on New Caprica for Felix more than for any other reason. This is the man who then sits with Felix before his death. It's perfect.

GREAT stuff, and I'm so psyched and lucky that I get to see it first!

[falafel-musings.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much for the beta advice! I hope to keep hitting your fic kinks. The next chapters shows Gaeta being torn between Baltar and Zarek so how can I fail? I actually feel very positive about the next five chapters. This was the tricky one for me, cos it goes in that big year gap.

Hmm, it might have been you who I got the idea from about it being Felix's city. I think Gaius liked the idea of New Caprica too, but he got bored with it the moment that it became too difficult and just returned to his vices.

Looking forward to new YFL! When, when??

[blue-crow.livejournal.com]

This is gorgeous and just... I think you said this series was supposed to be the definitive Gaius/Gaeta fic? I think that's just what you've written here. I love how it just captures the subtext out of the scenes we do get to see and places it right there for everyone. A lot of the little lines really slayed me, the line about Gaeta being Gaius's hero was so touching and the comment about Tyrol... well, you can probably guess why that amused me. D:

I'm so glad you're getting back to these. I really loved them. And New Caprica is especially lovely because they have such a great love/hate (mostly hate) dynamic at this point, and its so dramatic.

[falafel-musings.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! (btw - just bookmarked your new Gaius/Felix, I can't wait to read it, though I must go to bed soon).

Yeah, the main idea of this fic series is to write a canon story that sticks to BSG verse yet gets to grips with all that subtext and makes it real, hopefully in a believable way. It is also very satisfying to go over Gaius/Felixs devastating arc and explore it in a greater depth than TV allows for.

Thanks for reading. And thanks for your AJ vids! Again, I'll comment tomorrow. Brain is dying from tiredness right now...

[mrine.livejournal.com]

Huzzah, a new installment! I'm glad to see you are writing these again, as we are all about to hit a huge patch of BSG withdrawals too soon.

Jeez, Gaius is such a jerk. Sometimes it surprises me, seeing how much his character (or maybe just his situation) has changed in this past half-season. I liked seeing whiny-little-brat Gaius in the Daybreak Pt. 1 flashbacks, and you've portrayed that side of him perfectly in this.

These days Felix had a cultivated a way of saying Mr President so that it rhymed with you bastard.

Lol! My favorite line! Gotta love that passive-aggressive kid.

[falafel-musings.livejournal.com]

Thanks for remembering this fic! I'm a little worried that I've lost a chunk of my readership by abandoning it for so long. Well, I'm still determined to finish it.

Whiny-little-brat Gaius is so much fun to write. Passive-aggressive-Felix is pwnsome too. And the combination of the two? I can't resist this pairing.

[trovia.livejournal.com]

Yai, update! I'm so glad you continued this!

I really like how Gaius is slowly growing paranoid about his health. It suits his character well, and it shows how badly he is dealing with his presidency.

The following morning Gaius had woken up with a raging hangover and found Felix sitting up in bed, his arms folded over his chest, complaining that their sex had been rushed and uncomfortable for him.

I love how you have Felix stand up to Baltar, instead of just taking whatever he can get. There are fics where he does that and they work just fine as well. But I like this better because Felix is so naive in so many ways at this point, it's nice to see that he has some sexual self-confidence at least.

[falafel-musings.livejournal.com]

Thanks for remembering!

Yes, I think Gaius is at his nastiest as president but I think he is also at rock bottom as a junkie manic depressive. So he is pitiable as much as he is loathesome.

Well, I like to think that Felix's growing disappointment with Gaius would register on a sexual level too. It just adds to how violated Felix feels about it all.

[cylune9.livejournal.com]

New Caprica!Felix!!! My favorite.

That was such a tensed scene between the two of them. I love the "unspoken" dialogue - they want to hurt each other but even so, they still cared very much:

If they were important to Felix then he would sign them and trust that it was the right thing to do.

awwwwww. The thing Gaius does for Felix...

[falafel-musings.livejournal.com]

More New Caprica-Felix to come in the next 2 chapters...

Since their final scene in S4 I consider it canon that Gaius cared about Felix too, even if he was a selfish obnoxious bastard who hardly ever showed it. That is why I wanted to write this series with Gaius POV, because his feelings are less considered than Felixs feelings for Gaius.

Thanks for reading! Hope your new job is going well.

[falafel-musings.livejournal.com]

PS - why has my story text got a white background? Do you know how I can change the background colour back to this nice soft yellow colour?

[cylune9.livejournal.com]

I don't know.... maybe try copying and repasting in html mode. You probably have some weird coding stuff going on...

Forgot to say... I love how Felix was building a census. Ties in very well with the webisodes and during the mutiny - he cares about what the "little people" in the fleet are going through because he knows every single one of them from his New Caprica days.

[falafel-musings.livejournal.com]

Oh dear. I get a bit technophobic when it comes to coding and html. I guess I'll just have to leave it.

Thanks! Yes, I do think Felix genuinely cared about the little people, more so than Roslin and Adama even. Well, the mutiny proved that Roslin would endanger the fleet before she surrendered where as Felix would not. And I don't think that makes him gutless at all. I think it shows how much he cares.

[safenthecity.livejournal.com]

I just read all four parts, and I really really like this series. Gaius is such an interesting character, and I think you really have a lot of insight as to what makes him tick. The part about Felix making lists nearly killed me. But in a good way. You are sneaky like that. I look forward to more, though I'm sure your last chapter will break me. You're pretty good at that.

[falafel-musings.livejournal.com]

Wow, thanks for catching up on this series. I'm pleased you are enjoying it, because it is my long labour of love fic. Gaius is a treat to write, I have to say. Even when he is horrible he tends to make me laugh.

Yes, the last chapter is going to be quite soul destroying.

[millari.livejournal.com]

I like the way this begins with Gaius being so low and so obnoxious and almost never relents from there, tempered only by his growing hypochondria and that moment of release at the end when he rushes across the room to Felix with the signed papers. It's so heartbreaking by that point. I especially loved this descriptive line:
It felt like there was a Raider volleying inside his skull.

Felix's reaction to the intern was also heartwrenching, as was Gaius' frustration at it. My boys are so angsty and hurting here, lashing out at each other like cornered animals, even as Felix hides behind a thin, hard veneer of professionalism.

The way the intern hovers around the scene, being just enough of an uncontrollable wild card for Gaius he thinks he can control but really can't says a lot about Gaius' passive-aggressive nature and his need for approval. He could just kick her out, but he doesn't really and he's totally ineffectual when she refuses to take the hint. It really adds to the tension. Also, the comparison of Felix's impassivity to Caprica's impassivity in the Mini was inspired. There really are some good parallels between Felix and Caprica Six. I would have loved to see the show explore them, even for one scene. Oh, and LOL on Playa finding the intern for him. Who knows what secret agenda Playa might have had in choosing this particular young lady for Gaius' consumption. :D

Following the terrorist attack, Gaius had spent a long night crying in Felix’s arms while the younger man had held him gently and attempted to console him with loving reassurances

I hadn't expected this back story. It was really intriguing. I liked how you portray Felix as something more than a conquest for Gaius, even if he himself sees it that way. And overall, I like how in this chapter you can see through Gaius' behaviors how he did care about Felix and really come to rely on him and even value his opinion of him. I'm glad Felix isn't just a blank slate that Gaius is filling up with hope at first, and then later angry bitterness. I liked too Gaius' own twisted reflections on choosing a homosexual relationship. Interesting that there's this implication he might considered trying to stay with Felix if he could ever conceive of being faithful. I like too how you connected Gaius' homosexual relationship to the scariness of the Sixes, especially in light of the fact that the arrival of a Six on New Caprica is impending.

These days Felix had a cultivated a way of saying Mr President so that it rhymed with you bastard.

Loved this line. It took me by surprise and was really evocative. I could imagine how Felix would say it. Also, the argument over the census was such a brilliant piece of economy that really shows the differences between Gaius and Felix's priorities on New Caprica. It makes the point well that New Caprica was Felix's dream far more than Baltar's. So when Gaius sees him as a troubled ship captain, the reader is primed for the comparison and it really resonates.

Finally, I too liked that Felix stood up to Gaius, even if he should have probably decked Gaius back. ;) His little speech felt very evocative of New Caprica, but it also reminded me of Felix's speech to Adama. The parallels, they hurt...

“Felix…here, I’ve signed them…” Gaius slipped the papers neatly back inside their folder and carried them over to him, holding them out like a cringing servant. “Look…I signed them just like you wanted me to…”
Gaius' demeanor here kind of reminds me of the way he was approaching Felix in that deleted cigarette scene from "Eye of Jupiter." Ah, I love Woobie!Gaius. I can't help it. Thanks for putting it in there. :D And Felix's remarks to him after collecting the signed papers are just the knife twisting that makes it all extra special woobie.

And wow, the last few lines. What a quiet, sad beat to end on. It kinda broke me.

Can't wait to see the next installment.

[falafel-musings.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I think I get as much out of your comments as you seem to get out of my stories. It is like reading a fic commentary that goes deeper in its analysis than my initial concept.

I'm so glad that readers are catching the hypochondria theme. I do think Gaius was psychologically unwell during the year and a half on New Caprica and it only compounded his vile behaviour and his weakness as a leader. He is so twitchy and paranoid.

I do indeed love the passive-aggressiveness of Gaius/Felix on New Caprica. They are both more cerebral than alpha, so you get a lot of psychological blows between them. Gaius slapping Felix was just an accidental jerk reflex. As for the Felix-Caprica parallels, yes, they will be continuing into the next chapter. I wish the show had played on that tension a little more too.

I'm pleased you liked the backstory. After their final scene together I consider it canon that Gaius cared about Felix and I don't think that he only started to care later on. I think he cared all along and was too much of a selfish bastard to show it. But it is great to explore why Gaius might care and even depend on Felix. I don't know about you, but as a Felix/Gaius shipper I often get criticised for suggesting Gaius would have a gay relationship since he is shown to be a womaniser. So I wanted Gaius to justify it to himself and the reader too.

I love Woobie!Gaius too, of course. This whole fic series might as well be a tribute to the woobie side of Gaius that cared about his relationship with Felix. That side of his character is there in the show, but it needs expanding on.

Next installment coming soon! Hopefully this weekend.

[zeroambi.livejournal.com]

What did you do to my poor Gaius? Oh wait, you did nothing. He really just is such a self-absorbed, cowardly, abusive, pathetic, batshit crazy, little asshole.

Gods, I love him so. ♥♥♥

And I love how you have written him here to remind me of that. (Season 4 on threshold of redemtion Baltar is a bit of a let down) Poor Felix. Should have slapped back. Hard. But of course he is to professional for that. *sigh*

[falafel-musings.livejournal.com]

Hehe! I love Gaius too. Shameful to admit it but the more of a dirtbag he is, the more fun he is to write. I've been liking the S4 redemption arc, but Gaius was waaaay more interesting in his frakked up S3 arc.

Yes, Felix is way too professional to slap back. And also why should Felix slap Gaius now when he can make his crazy double agent plans to shoot him later.

Thanks for reading!

[kappamaki33.livejournal.com]

So happy to see this fic updated! I enjoyed reading the early sections back in my LJ-lurker days, but I was afraid you'd discontinued work on it. I don't have much to add to the comments already posted here (well, except that the line about "Mr. President" rhyming with "bastard" deserves praise yet again), but I loved how wonderfully complicated and messy the relationship between these two was here and look forward to reading more.

[falafel-musings.livejournal.com]

Yes, sorry for the long hiatus! I decided I wanted to wait till after S4.5 to continue. I wanted to know how my Gaius/Felix ship would end. Now I know about that devastating conclusion, I've got more drive for this series. They are indeed wonderfully complicated and messy. And hurty. *sniff*

[kajam.livejournal.com]

Yay, New Caprica! I was looking forward to those parts and I sure wasn't disappointed!

You portrayed Felix so very well here, so idealistic, brave and just... in contrast to Gaius who already seems to have given up on NC and himself, but not yet on Felix' dream (that was a very beautiful and touching moment, by the way!).

I miss Felix :( He was one of the greatest unsung heroes of BSG and probably the most outstanding character in the NC storyarch.

I suppose the final chapter will include the very last conversation of Gaius and Felix? That's another one I'm really, really looking forward to! :D

[falafel-musings.livejournal.com]

Thanks Kaja! This fic is staying in New Caprica for the next two chapters then going back to Galactica. They'll be appearences from Romo, Cottle, Jeanne (OMG, can't wait to write for Jeanne!) and Hoshi in the later chapters.

I suppose the final chapter will include the very last conversation of Gaius and Felix? That's another one I'm really, really looking forward to! :D

Yes *sniff* You won't say that when I post it. I've already written some of it and it is really upsetting stuff to fic.

I think unsung heroes and tragic heroes are my favourite kind of heroes. We love Charlie and Snape for these reasons too! And speaking of unsung/tragic heroes - how is your Kat/Kara vid going?

[kajam.livejournal.com]

They'll be appearences from Romo, Cottle, Jeanne (OMG, can't wait to write for Jeanne!) and Hoshi in the later chapters.

Oooh, that sounds good (even if I must admit that I had to google who Jeanne is ^^)

Yes *sniff* You won't say that when I post it. I've already written some of it and it is really upsetting stuff to fic.

I'm not too worried. You know me, the more heartbreak and tragedy, the better. I'm such a masochist! ;)

And speaking of unsung/tragic heroes - how is your Kat/Kara vid going?

I didn't have much time to vid in the last few days, but I hope that I'll be able to finish the vid by the end of this week. There are only bits and pieces missing, nothing that should take too long anymore.

Did you have some time this week to work on your C/C vid?

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I expect to be a puddle of wibble and soggy tissues by the end of this, but whee! new fic!

These days Felix had a cultivated a way of saying Mr President so that it rhymed with you bastard.

HA! Awesome. And amen! atta boy, Felix.

Gaius imagined Felix had memorised the name of every person in their colony by now.

Of *course* he did. And he knows more than just their names, too.

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Thanks for your comments. I'm so grateful for your wibbles!